how there’s a difference between an “ex-best friend” and then someone who “just used to be my best friend, but isn’t anymore”. I guess “ex” just has a bad connotation. whenever you hear “ex-whatever” it just sounds like “ooh, bad history there”. or maybe that’s just me. whenever I hear “ex-best friend” I...
I GUESS IT'S IRONIC
that I say “oh my god” when I complain about being agnostic and having to take religion class. I’ve been stuck taking religion classes for 12 years. after I graduate, I’m going to do my own research and figure things out for myself. until then, I’m done with all of this bullshit.
two separate friends now who I’ve forgotten that they used to see counselors. and it isn’t just forgetting, I pretty much repress the knowledge because when I’ve found out that they ever saw anyone, I’ve taken it in as completely new information. it kind of freaks me out that I so completely forget that type of information specifically.
SO IT'S SNOWING
and it snowed a lot. we actually had a snowday. it’s snowed so much that we should have a snowday tomorrow, however, our new superintendent is an asshole and does not appear to enjoy letting us off school, since this is our first snowday all year. so chances are we’ll end up with school tomorrow, probably with a two-hour-delay. fuck it. I hope we don’t have school though. even...
tmi tuesday? alright.
that senior year is supposed to be great, it’s going to be the best. well, everyone lied. my senior year fucking sucks. it came with a huge workload, which I expected. but it also came with a lot of relationship changes, which I did not expect. I miss my friends, I miss the way things used to be. but at least I know now who people really are, and I know who is really important to me. so I...
I MISS YOU
so fucking much
I USED TO
write a lot. all the time. I always had ideas and was writing everything down about everything. but I stopped. and I don’t know why. I’m trying to start again, but I’m afraid that I’ve changed too much.
this week passed really weirdly. we didn’t have school on Monday, so I feel like today is just Thursday. the week went by really fast, but the days dragged on forever. I am unbelievably happy that it’s the weekend. I need more sleep than this.
LOOKING FOR SENIOR WEEK
fuck everyone else. I just want us to be happy with where we pick.